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There's a little "It" that I thought I always wanted. Years have passed and "It" has always been a little tease, prancing around just within my reach, but nearly impossible to obtain. But now that I've got it, I don't want It anymore. Previously I idealized this "It" item as something to look forward to, a challenge to overcome, and It would represent a symbolic proof of accomplishment and growth. Maybe it was the thrill of the chase that sparked my interest and initiated my ambitions and assertiveness.

Having a few days to soak in the accomplishment I felt from finally obtaining this particular "It", I later realized that this is not something I want. This isn't the route I want to take. Sure, I knew It would always be temporary-- just something to keep me occupied and stable-- but it isn't what I want. It, as I now anticipate, is no more than a mere disappointment and quite frankly, sucky. Now It has come to me, but I am not satisfied. I see It as equivalent to... soggy bread. Bread it is, but attractive and amazing It is not.

So goodbye It!

IS WHAT I WOULD LIKE TO SAY.

I am over It and I hope someone else takes It, but I do feel slightly obligated to be with It now.

Optimistic? Let's be realistic.

Despite what I say at interviews, I am not good at managing my time.

Iron Man Midnigh

Not recommended for children, pregnant or nursing women, or those sensitive to caffeine.

Before I head back out the door, I would like to share that I am IN LOVE with this right now. Without this magic fuel, I would be defunct. Horizontal stripes are NOT a girl's best friend. However, placing an image in the foreground boosts self esteem. Don't let your eyes fool you.

Cute guy at the school shuttle stop who looks like an half asian-white Ryan Reynolds, you are always the highlight of my Tuesdays and Thursdays.

Jiminy Cricket, my curtains are ky00t.

F for eFFort

Why can't I just crawl into bed and have nobody talk to me today?

And yes, I have to go on campus right now, instead I mope and whine in this virtual diary. A diary that I don't want anyone to read, but I like when people read it.

Sometimes I'll purposely not take the shuttle with people just because I hate talking. Anti-social? Not really.

Also I hate repeating myself.

What?

I don't want to go, but I guess I should. People who are overly random are annoying sometimes.

I'd say I'm not being overly random right now because this is a negative post and mostly everything here is negative. Retarded questions that are really statements are annoying, especially on days like today where I just want to sleep and not talk.

"Are you on the computer?" when I am clearly galloping my fingers on the keypad like a horse on a racetrack.

Are you seriously complaining right now?

This all started with a failed all-nighter, no parking on campus and being late to a midterm that I just plunked. Did I mention I just stuffed my face with truffles?

Oh wait, that's a good thing. (:

Man, I hate showing up places late but looks like I am going to be late.

LATEZ.

I promise I'm not a grump. (: and apparently I DO want to talk today.

Waiting for no one.

I'm bored.

Not a double entendre.

On facebook, everyone gets 1 free gift to give to someone. I never used mine because I was hoping to save it for somebody special. But now, with all those free gifts, gifts are just whatevers, a fun little chuckle. I don't think the gift I've been saving is even special anymore. In fact, I don't even think my gift is even useable or meaningful.

Of course, after all these years there still is no one to give the gift to anyway.

hehe.